countdown

few days to new year...i want to find books on the history of the companion of Rasulullah saw, reinstall my psp with may favourite game and learn a little bit of sign language...

I am learning

i pray to God to always save me, keep me by HIS side, do not let me stray from the right path, guide me in life, this life might seems taking a long route, facing lots of ups and down sometimes hard but always harder, with lots of smile tears joy and laughter, all treaded with patience, unconditional, through times we matured but also make mistakes.
Following the Prophet's footsteps is the best way to get the ALMIGHTY's blessing, from HIM we came and to HIM we shall return,. Before we were born we had witnessed HIS greatness, we understood then,, so why do we waive it now.....yup ...i guess that is what we call giving in to temptation
am addicted to shopping !!!!!! cant stand those beautiful dress, already bought 2 last month....if i buy this month .that means i need a new wardrobe

Is it once cheated twice shy or once beaten twice shy

i stumbled for the right idiom to say, but it just blurted out " once cheated....." was i emotionally affected by the past, well.... no actually, i have this habit of lapses. someone says it is a symptom of a desease, but i'm not gonna dwell on that yet, may be next time.
First i was dying to perform hajj but it seems like we're not yet invited by ALLAH SWT.Everything has its hikmah, in every cloud there is a silver lining. I guess i havent really prepared to go there ,...

revision revision

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3I0qV9wA-gA&NR=1

Farewell Ramadhan...

Alhamdullillah for we managed to fast throughout the month. I had my break for nearly 15 days which was actually a little bit less. I was upset for awhile, but God's the best Planner, we meekly and humbly submit to His Almighty. I had my good news, we most probably could perform the fifth pillar of Islam. Prayi ng hard for it.
What's going on lately? well nothing much, i guess. I had been trying on my business skill. helping my brother to sell his goods, well i did quite well. So to spread the wing my friends and i tried to sell tudung, it ended up we liked many of the tudung and sold a few. A lady and a nice tudung is actually inseparable.
Hopefully Ramadhan has touched many hearts, including mine to, and that Allah SWT will guide us to always be on His path.
SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN. we cleanse ourselves from sins and forgive others, well there is nothing to lose except we are closer to God.Insya Allah.

am livid

work start next week but i'm neither thrill nor anxious about it, the spirit has gone to pot....i need few years more to stay put, then i need to revamp the plan ahead, am i not being thankful...may be i need to kick myself to return to my sanity
i am too livid to make reliable decision....so i leave it for now.....

they have gone to pot....

i could not finish the book, every paragraph needs attention, i have to pace slowly down every line, they were nicely printed with legible font and neat spacing...and i came to the part whereby when the carefully plan doesnt work and gone to pot we just have to accept and learn from it .....
before i could move on to the next chapter, cumi came
home and surprised me with a letter from TH, of course it is expected but it stir me with a haywire feeling and conciousness, it is not a confirmation letter only a procedural reply.
Rabbi yassir wala tua'ssir....

muhasabah diri ...mujahadah

Lirik Lagu ” Antara Dua Cinta “Artis ” Raihan “

Apa Yang Ada Jarang Disyukuri
Apa Yang Tiada Sering Dirisaukan
Nikmat Yang Dikecap Baru Kan Terasa
Bila Hilang Apa Yang Diburu Timbul Rasa Jemu
Bila Sudah Di Dalam Genggaman
Dunia Ibarat Air Laut
Diminum Hanya Menambah Haus
Nafsu Bagaikan fatamorgana
Di Padang Pasir
Panas Yang Membahang Disangka Air
Dunia dan Nafsu Bagai Bayang-bayang
Dilihat Ada Ditangkap Hilang
Tuhan Leraikanlah DuniaYang Mendiam Di Dalam Hatiku
Kerana Di Situ Tidak ku Mampu
Mengumpul Dua Cinta
Hanya CintaMu ku Harap Tumbuh
Dibajai Bangkai Dunia Yang Kubunuh

it doesn't rain but it pours

last night was really a heavy rain , and windy too...my mood twirled from light to heavy , the sound of water tapping on the roof really soothing and enchanting, it has been so long period since a heavy downpour.such magical sound is a music to my ears.
the day turns out bright, the plants are sure dancing in happiness :enough water and sun to make them grow healthily.
i keep on hearing myself saying "move on", i wonder what it means....do i move on correctly, but based on the rule of possibility, there is not only a one correct way, there could be others also. hopefully i could move on better steps. But how?
i want to change the flower pot, the leaves are withering, it does not get enough sun, the awning is blocking the sunlight, even the clothes dry slower. plants are different from one and another, too much sun can be a benefit to some but a disaster to another.
so....just rearrange and move them....

man vs devil

an idle man's brain is the devil's workshop. so would you rather do nothing or something. it's actually a dead end no choice but to keep on digesting , living , adapting and processing, of course there is routine, but the inevitable is always appearing causing goosebumps.what the hell do i care whether a man or the devil occupying others brain but surely not mine. hehehe ... am i overacting? perhaps that is how my life cycles, always facing ups and downs , a little bit dramatic, am i? well a non-stop-laugh is not a medicine to the soul, we could be labeled as madman, or actually disguising behind a face-mask, of something that is hard to face or admit. remember 'joker" who is an enemy to spiderman or is it batman. let us deal with that later.....
go back to fitrah...find your journey to ALLAH SWT

chowwwwww
salam.

spontaneity

spontaneity and creativity are good partners......

tumultous state

there was a girl searching for prospective good husband, she gave many conditions that were difficult to fulfil. Then, there was a man who was willing to undertake her will, he strove fot the best and succeeded,.
on the day of their wedding a war broke, they could not tie the knot as the imam was held as a captive by the enemy, the bride cried and cried. the groom promised her to get another imam however on his way there, he was trapped at the imam's house because the place was under siege and it was in a tumultous state . the bride cried and cried. but she cried harder and this time because the imam had a beautiful daughter...:P

a leg up

distance is a fact
that i can only watch sad faces through screen
i want to be there
to wipe the tears, brush the hair
clean the bruises
but i can only hope to be there
extending a leg-up
would it be possible
to see you smile
be sure
to steadfast in HIS SWT path
do not stray
do not doubt
do not sway
as your reward is jannah

let us join hand
to donate and support the Palestinian cause

nothingness

a woman walked up to a friend telling things that was not making any sense, the friend practically did not respond to the nothingness. she felt awkward, retreating to her seat, she asked herself whether the friend was deaf because the replied was unexpected. calming herself down, she told herself that people see things differently. She wondered why?

The friend walked away silently, ignoring the woman's absurdity of telling her to do jobs that did not concern her. She knew her voice would sound harsh so she kept quiet. thinking silence is golden. she also realised how people see things differently.

Quietly i watched how they faced each other, a silent dispute.

moments that are engraved on my mind

there was a girl sitting next to me, at first i did not even realise that she was there as i myself was concentrating in my prayer that i forgot about others, suddenly she was sobbing very hard that she scared me, i glanced at her and i was taken aback by the tears that were streaming from her eyes.Jumping on my feet i walked away, i thought my life was doomed, but looking at her, i guessed i was not the only one.now only i could see her sitting there beside me before Ka'aba, i wish i could tell her how sorry i was that i did not console her, or at least stayed by her side,

and life goes on, driving home from work i listened to an islamic channel, the fuel was more than half full as i was a little bit light on the paddle, other vehicles were also on a slow pace, nobody speed as there was a police traffic near the junction the day before, the deejay was saying "if we seek human's pleasure with Allah SWT wrath, we will be left at human's will...." and forgive me God if it ever crosses me to seek that path....

the hot weather made my mind wonder to a sister whom i could not see her face.she nearly passed out in front of me when we were struggling to get near to performing the tradition of Prophet saw, now i wonder whether it was due to the heat as it was in May, i whispered to her that we should back out to save ourselves , we were nearly drown by the crowd, i could not imagine our fate if either of us fell to the ground we desperately moved out, pulling her out to a space nevertheless i was suddenly pushed foward and facing towards it. i was able to perform the tradition, stubbornly , i set my mind to get to know it as per itself 'the stone' , so it was itself.....and so it was true, seeing it from another angle, God knows what is in the heart and what is in the mind....

But not long before, there was a girl who was trying hard to touch the stone as how a sahabah did it, keeping it in mind that the Prophet saw had touch it, she was eager to trace the tradition, it was not easy it was a struggle ...the scent bloomed in her heart that her heart could burst open, and she was beguiled by it....and i said SUBHANALLAH, Allah SWT the most Gracious and Most Merciful

an enjoyable time

at a book fair, snooping sniffing flipping eyeing browsing the pages is a hobby which has been swept under the carpet but has been awoken

it hits me to the core...

(speechless tongue-tied dumbfounded and suffocated by .......adapted from ust has blog comment ...)
Saja nak sama-sama berkongsi peristiwa.Salam.Abang saya yg tersayang,di bawa pergi bersama dua angota polis ,sebelum sempat mencapai AL_QURAN untuk di baca bersama anak dan isteri selepas habis Magrib.Tak tahu kenapa dan apa punca,kata polis di balai nanti boleh diberitahu sebab dan mengapa.Tak berdaya berbuat apa-apa,tangan di gari didepan tiga orang anak yang masih disekolah rendah dan tadika dan tak dapat ucap apa-apa dengan isteri.Dibalai ,diberitahu abang saya memperkosa(rogol)seorang budak dalam lingkunggan 4ke5 tahun.Tak boleh membela diri ketika itu,hari pun dah mlm,abang saya disumbat kedalam lokap dlm keadaan berseluar dalam sahaja.Bapa saya ketika itu dah tak ada air mata menanggis, bergitu juga kami.Seminggu didalam lokap dan sudah dibelasah beberapa kali oleh mat-mat lokap juga atas arahan polis keatas dia,sehingga kening abang saya pun dicukur,abang saya dibebaskan atas jaminan yang tak kurang 10 ke 12 ribu.Dalam semua surat khabar tersiar berita ini.Kerana hati abang saya dekat dgn ALLAH,dan doa yang berterus dari keluarga dan muslimin yg mengenalinya ,kes berjalan hampir 10 tahun dan bapa kami telah kembali kerahmahtuallah tanpa dapat mendengar hukuman dijatuhkan.Jika sabit kesalahan dia akan dipenjara tak kurang 25th dan sebat 6 ke 15 sebatan.Iktiar emak tak pernah padam,lalu menyarankan abg pergi menunaikan umrah dan berdoa dan buatlah ibadah sedaya mungkin disana.Malangnya dibacakan hukuman,abg saya tetap didapati bersalah.Pergi ke makamah tinggi utk yang terakhirnya proses ini,dan jika tetap kalah dalam melawan kes,abang saya dah tak berpeluang lagi mempertahankan haknya..Kerana pendapatan abang saya tak besar ,kami bersama-sama membantu bayar jaminan dan belanja anak-anak sekolah.ALLAH maha kaya ,Walau pun kes ini sungguh memalukan,yang peliknya jiran-jiran walau pun bukan muslim ,rakan taulan dan ramai lagi yang tak pernah abang saya kenal datang menziara dan juga turut menyumbang dlm kes ini.Dipendekkan cerita yang terlalu panjang dan memang tak boleh saya tulis dengan detail,ALLah melepaskan FITNAH itu pada tahun lepas.Peguam yg membela abg saya tak ambil 10sen pun atas hikmat beliau,sdgkan kes dah berjln hampir 10th.Bergitulah FITNAH yang abang saya tanggung.Komen komen dari pembaca yang tidak tahu kedudukan sebenar sungguh tajam dan mengelarkan abang saya sebagai bapa Syaitan.Orang yang memfitnah abang,kini telah mengidap strok disamping pelbagai penyakit lain dan disiasat oleh polis.Menurut logik dari siasatan berkemungkinan besar cucunya itu adalah mangsa pemfitnah itu sendiri.Sebelum itu ..cucunya pernah diasuh oleh kakak ipar saya.FITNAH itu melata-lata,semuga kita sentiasa berdoa kehadrat ALLah dan dilindungi dari beban FITNAH ini.

travelling broaden the minds

the new link really awesome....dont miss the oppporytunity to learn, check it out k

what is on your mind?

SOMETIMES CHANGES ARE INEVITABLE....AS I HAVE JOTTED SOMEWHERE BEFORE THAT IN THE END IS A NEW BEGINNING, I STILL FEEL THE SAME,

patience is

an action to always keep in Allah swt path and not to stray from it, to stand for your right is patience, to defend it is patience....by AA

down the memory lane

stepping foward, aside
bending and blending
to look into the future
without doubt or hesitation
that as long as we walk in HIS guide
blessing will be the reward
in this life where 24-7 will fly in a wink
in the hereafter where time is eternity
and a moment is like 1000 years

sometimes there is a tug
to look at what you had left in the past
not to regret but to appreciate and move on

give them an inch ,they'll take a mile

confusion can be very annoying as if we are sailing in stormy sea, sometimes these guys are sure to behave quite not like them if we give them an inch, they will surely take a mile....
(cam bagi betis nak peha)

finders keepers lossers weepers

life 24-7 is actually short, years passing by, treasure the moment by accomplishing things and doing beneficial things, once its gone, hardly to find a recurrence

once bitten twice shy...

it makes me sad to ever think of it but the title is irrelevent to this entry,..... as my fingers continued pressing on the keyboard, i am elated at the present situation, bonding with long lost housemate able me to reminisce on our youth, looking at pics reminded me how many years have passed since then, tq tati for finding me, i remember accompanying her on her first date while i myself was uncertain of the need to be there since i was very tired of the day work, anyway she married the man, and later i got married, was the sequence correct or vice versa i couldnt arrange them properly..about their second date and the rest they managed well without me as love was in the air..hahaha

new year resolution

on cloud nine and over the moon
the mood to start a new year with wonderful thoughts and perspective, a flat tyre requires new rim, strangely the new look boost my spirit, simple things could easily lift my spirit, so i guess i'm not someone who is choosy and fussy in general buttt... in certain matters they are required, do i talk about politics? yessss.. as an observer i feel we're now more matured, but do we really care for the benefit of ummah....
to be continued